Articles, Peter Mooring

Western democracy and the Targeted Individuals program: Part 4 – Traumas

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Introduction

Am I traumatized? Yes. But how bad is it? Do I have split personalities? No. Do I know Targeted Individuals who have been traumatized? Yes. But how bad is it? Do I know Targeted Individuals with split personalities? No. Most real Targeted Individuals I know are kind, friendly, emphatic, people. I also know fake TIs, and there is certainly something very wrong with them. Like there is also something very wrong with all people working and volumtarily participating in targeting.

So how bad is it? Very bad. Writing and speaking truth costed me a lot. I suffered and suffer. Often I dragged myself to the next day. I am not a person who quits easily, and I have no intention to quit with anything. After all these years, I know (almost) all ‘tricks’ (torture). But the 24/7 torture can be extremely tiring, exhausting. And there are periods of many months where they do everything to prevent me from sleeping. This means there is some sort of restarting every time. Anyway, I consider it a miracle that I am still alive and can write this down. At certain moments it looked like there was an angel that was protecting me.

I have tried to identify a number of traumas that are the result of these attacks. I do not know exactly how to define trauma, so read this as things that have a serious impact on my life. And because the attcks never stop, you cannot really recover. Below, I will not go into describing all my attacks, I have written a lot about them already. Despite the tremendous impact on my life, I believe that I did not really change as a person, which I consider my biggest victory over them.

  1. Self-isolation, social distancing;
  2. Never a moment of peace / Total loss of privacy, not even in your head;
  3. Living on borrowed time;
  4. Pain is relative, there is always more;
  5. Extreme uncertainty about the future;
  6. Things I can never tell;
  7. Rape and mind rape;
  8. Living in the Matrix feeling;
  9. Missed opportunities
  10. Unforgivable crimes and hatred

1. Trauma: Self-isolation, social distancing

I am extremely afraid that people around me get hurt, or being involved, by the criminals that attack me. Yes, they deliberately attack people, children, pets, around you when are a victim. To isolate you and to depress you. They do this with and without Directed Energy Weapons, Neuro Weapons. I have experienced everything. Attacks on people around me, including children, and on animals. From beatings, short zaps to headaches, stomach aches, you name it, in one case, close to me, leading to death. Unprovable of course. And, because this is through-wall technology, you cannot protect them when they are using Directed Energy Weapons, Neuro Weapons, even when they are in your home. A house is not a safe place anymore. They have done this many times and the reason is of course that you will self isolate, keep distance. Which I did, immediately from the beginning, you do not want other people, children, to get hurt.

The attackers also involve people, including children, and ask them to do things, say things, etc. They involve everyone if necessary, they don’t care about people, children, animals. They also suggest that persons are participating in these crimes while many have no idea. I know that in a number cases the person that was targeted, got very angry and attacked people he thought were involved.

To conclude, I am not afraid for myself, but I simply do not want these things to happen to people. About people that co-operate, they just follow orders, do what they have been asked, many have no idea that they are participating in horrific crimes. The attackers never stopped asking people around me to participate, they don’t care. All they care about is saving their own ass, trying to avoid life time sentence. And they are also old-fashioned. They have been doing this, murdering people, for decades, but then “suddenly” there was the internet, and everything they do today is being exposed. Like the governments of Western democracies, they do not know what to do anymore. Anyway, the attacks are on-going, and never stop, meaning that there is no way to recover from this.

2. Trauma: Never a moment of peace / Total loss of privacy, not even in your head

Anoher trauma has to do with the fact that you never have a moment of peace. And when I say never, I mean never! I am watched, monitored, 24/7 non-stop, second-by-second. I estimate that 60% of all attacks are automated, meaning 40% done by a person watching you. I have written before that I am connected to some sort of ‘mind control computer’. Literally everything I do is reacted to. And this includes when my breathing stops for a few seconds when looking without looking, as we all do a number of times a day to relax, to reset. And with this 24/7 surveillance and directed energy weaponry, they can react everywhere, anytime. Open a web page, click Save to save a document, stand up to walk to the kitchen, pass a door, get in your car, get out of your car, you name it.

For the record. This has nothing to do with the self-fullfilling prophecy, or being psychosomatic. This is just one of the many very advanced secret (!) methods of torture today. Jack Murphy, National Security journalist & Army Special Operations veteran described some methods that were used against Havana Syndrome affected U.S. diplomats and CIA officers and called this “surveillance harassment”, but it is better to call this “surveillance torture”. And he also mentioned that when you try to describe this kind of surveillance to someone, you sound like someone who is suffering from paranoid schizophrenia. This is how the system in Western democracies “silences” whistleblowers, opposition, victims of human experimentation, etc. See also the Luke Harding article in The Guardian (2014): Writing The Snowden Files: ‘The paragraph began to self-delete’ .

This also is related to what the police in the Netherlands call: “Letting a person know that he is under surveillance”. But then into the extreme. There were two court cases in the Netherlands, in 2005 and 2006, where the police did such things. Here the Dutch government tried to legalize (psychological) torture. The persons under surveillance were very scared because a police car stopped every few hours in front of their home. They never received a letter, or had been contacted by the authorities, that they were a suspect in some case. It just started one day. After a great deal of criticism from human rights lawyers and members of parlement, the Minister of Justice promised that they would not do this anymore, they would only use a ‘light’ version he said. Of course they did not stop doing this. They started using unmarked cars, I have experienced this many times.

Besides looking at me the whole day, and monitoring my breathing, they also monitor my brain activity. For example, when in bed, with my eyes closed and relaxed, when I move my eyes, this is immediately reacted to.

And if this not enough, they also monitor my thoughts (subvocal speech), although I believe they do not do this all the time. A few times a day, a week, is enough for you to freak out. No privacy, not even in your head. Insane. If they only monitor your thoughts then you will not know this. They let me know this by reacting to the things I think of. And even if they can only interpret 10-20% of your thoughts (I believe it is much more) then this is enough to drive you crazy. The last thing you thought was private is no longer private.

When I say that they can read your thoughts, I mean that they can decode (parts of) your subvocal speech. Subvocal speech, sometimes also called Silent Speech, are the words we say the whole day to ourselves without actually speaking. What happens here is that everything, like muscles movement, is identical to speaking, but the signals to the speech muscles are too weak generate sound. There are several ways to record this remotely. One is with infrared, here is a demonstration by university students: Silent speech device developed by Cornell Students . In a few years time this technology will be available to everyone. Starting probably in 2027, Apple will add “thought-reading” to their new phones and earbuds using the “Silent Speech” tech from Israeli Q.ai they acquired beginning of 2026 for $2 billion. Again, this is not real thought reading but recording micro movements from the face. The tech captures words we are saying the whole day to ourselves without speaking. Which can reveal many of our secrets. You clicked ‘I consent’ right? Wonderful.

Reading, and decoding, your thoughts is not easy, it requires a transmitter and receiver, and expensive in computing power. At least compared to inducing thoughts, which only requires a transmitter. They can induce thoughts that can be very difficult to distinguish from your own thoughts. And using induced thoughts, they can make you believe that they are reading your thoughts. Example: First they induce a thought about Amnesty International, and a few moments later they have you called by a callcenter where the person asks if you want to make a donation to Amnesty International. Here, your thought was not read, they simply induced a thought, and when this happens a few times, you start believing that your thoughts are being read. But I believe, I know, after evaluating this a lot of times, that my thoughts are being read, but not the whole time. Pretty horrible anyway when they let you know.

In the beginning they try to sensitize you to many things. In May 2000 they sensitized me to a car horn. For three days, when cars passed my home, there was a car horn. In the beginning you notice something is different, then you understand what is going on, then you get scared. Who is doing this? Anyway, this was then used to let me know I was followed. When I walked into a shop, car horn somewhere, out of a shop, car horn somewhere, etc. Everywhere. Because they (partly) know what I am thinking of, they also often disrupt my thinking, with sounds, beams. Pretty horrible and disgusting. They use sounds, but also Directed Energy Weapons to make me burp, fart, sneeze, cough, make my stomach rumble, cook, burn, sting, vibrate, my body, They call me, send me emails, attack me with troll accounts, or fake victims. They induce thoughts, emotions, remote electrocution causing spasms, creating urge to urinate or defecate, you name it. Everything perfectly synchronized to what I do, think.

I call this Torture-By-Synchronization. Extremely tiring, and they do it everywhere. Also when you are with other people. The number of reactions is easily 400 a day. If that is not enough they hack and manipulate my computers, phones, or just unleash Directed Energy Weapons torture on me, like cooking body parts, burning sensations, flashing my eyes (blurred vision), controllng my erection, headache, stomach ache. kidney pain, forced urination, defecation, you name it, they did and do it.

Again, because the attacks are on-going, and never stop, there is no way to recover from this. And even if the attacks would stop, can you recover from the fact that your thoughts are no longer private?

3. Trauma: Living on borrowed time

That I am alive and can write this down, is a micracle. I survived many constructed car accidents. And they keep trying to involve me in a car accident, never ended. I also survived an endless amount of almost death experiences. In 2006 they decided to literally cook me out of my house. When you blast the upper body with high power microwaves, then the air, moist, inside your lungs heats up, much quicker then other body parts. Hot fluid is coming out of your throat, and you really feel like being cooked alive. Typically it starts with a burning sensation on for example your back. This is followed by the cooked-alive feeling. If the beam is powerful enough you also have a burning sensation on the other side of your body, where the beam leaves. During the attack you may fall or laydown, and hope they will stop the beam. Typically, your breathing gets very difficult when they do this, and it can take hours before your breathing becomes more normal again.

They also pressurize your chest, from the front or from the back. If you do not know, you may think you have a heart attack. Tremendous pressure. Breath taking. And then there is the vibrating, twisting, of your bowels. Once this starts you feel like everything inside is being twisted like a holding a hose with both hands and turning backwards with one hand and forward with the other hand. In all cases you may go down on the floor, because of the insane pain. Many times I wondered if I would be alive after 30 seconds. For two years I tried to protect myself, and it helped, but only for a few days. Then they adjusted frequencies, intesity, modulation, and it started again. After two years I decided to remove most protection and said to them, murder me if you want, fuck you. I never called 112 (911) when I was down on the floor. Once I heard a car driving away very fast, yes, they probably thought I was dead. All this is also done when I am outside, even in the middle of a deserted forest. There are always aircraft around (above) me. I guess they shoot from these aircraft as well. This is just small part of the torture they do, but these types have to do with dead or alive.

So here I am, still alive, not dead, and that’s a miracle. It is weird to think of this. Some things matter far less when you have experienced this. I still care about many things like I used to, I always cared about many things, always cared about people, but sometimes, concerning my own life, I have something like, who cares. Maybe a better description is that I am more relaxed (too relaxed?) less stressed, although I am not a person who gets stressed easily, I don’t know.

4. Trauma: Pain is relative, there is always more

And how about pain? There is physical pain and mental pain. Targeting, trauma-based mind control, is very much about pain, torture is about pain. Some people call this the maximum pain business and this is correct in many ways.

About the physical pain, this is caused by Directed Energy Weapons. I have had over the top physical pain so many times. I tried to protect myself, but then after a few days they adjusted the frequency, modulation, intensity, and passed my shielding. At a certain moment I said, it is enough, murder me if you want to, I don’t care. And I removed most of my shielding. I have been many times on the floor with maximum pain wondering if I would be alive after 30 seconds. I am still here, which can only mean that pain alone cannot kill you.

And then there is the mental pain. This is far more complex, because there are many aspects. Prominent is the inability to protect people you love, you care for, and just around you. You see, know, that people are attacked, and you cannot do anything. You cannot talk about what is happening to them because they would be totally confused. Cognitive dissonance. The government does not do such things right, and nobody ever told them about this. The same for people who are involved by the attackers. Many have no clue. The attackers use lies, or their job position, to make them co-operate. There is not much you can do here. The only thing is that lies typically hold only some two years.

It is also about loosing people, friendships, opportunities, your whole life is turned upside down. Every good thing in my life must be destroyed, meaning that it is almost impossible to start new friendships or relationships. They are always there, trying to interfere, either by hacking into for example dating systems, or by aproaching people you like, either direct or indirect. And the whole time you must be aware of fake persons, fake victims, who may steal your time or trying to depress you.

I have come to the point with pain, either physical or mental, where I say: “Pain is relative, there is always more.” I have had enough pain, I am not afraid for pain, pain is the least of my problems. And in case you think that I wil take more risks because of this, more than other people, no I do not. I am always careful, within limits, I am not looking for pain. Summary: Although you get used to pain, there is something that is not normal here.

5. Trauma: Extreme uncertainty about the future

The attackers are in full control of your life. They let you struggle, make your life difficult, sometimes extremely difficult. Sometimes they let you do things, at other moments they destroy. This makes it very difficult to plan for the next weeks, months, let alone years. Tomorrow they may physically disable you. Have your work cancelled. I know, you never should let your actions of today be influenced by bad things that might happen tomorrow. But that applies to most people, not when you are targeted. You are dealing with questions like:

  • Is it worth to do something that can easily be destroyed by the attackers?
  • What is worth doing anyway?

This is very difficult. When you do things, there is always the risk that this will be destroyed immediately. You buy a computer and after you unpacked and installed it, it crashes when doing certain operations, like copying files onto it. In most cases there is nothing wrong with the computer but when you do these operations, they interfere and cause problems. Repeat, repeat, repeat, sometimes multiple days, and suddenly the problem disappears an never returns.

Contacting certain people can be a challenge. On your first call, the number may not respond. On the next call you may get through. When you don’t know the person you are calling, you have no idea if this is really the person you wanted to reach. One of the first things they always do when you move to a new location, is installing a stingray, a mobile cell tower, meaning they can intercept and control all your calls. During a call, the line may disconnect, not random but at very specific moments. You say the word ‘problem’, or the word ‘end’, and disconnect …

When you do things, there is always the risk that this will be destroyed immediately. You buy a computer and when after arrived, it crashes when doing certain operations, like copying files onto it. In most cases there is nothing wrong with the computer but when you do these operations, they interfere and cause problems. Repeat, repeat, repeat, and suddenly the problem disappears, an never returns.

When you contact people around you there is always big risk that they will seek contact with this person, tell their standard bullshit stories, ask the person to say or do specific things when in contact with you, etc. I call this a risk because I do not want them to bother other people, they are murderers right. When you have contact with persons, e.g. in a gym, they do not limit their contact to one time only but keep on doing this. And of course, they try to prevent you from going to the gym, by attacking you in the gym with Directed Energy Weapons, cooking you alive, shooting your legs, etc.

Summary. This is another good example of trauma-based mind control. It makes life extremely uncertain which can cause a lot of stress and as we all know, stress is very bad for your body. This also means you do not do all the things that you do if were not targeted.

6. Trauma: Things I can never tell

This is very much related to self-isolationg / social distancing. There are a number of things that happened that I probably never can tell to anyone. Telling this may shock the people involved, they will not be able to process this. I already mentioned that they react to everything I do, or want to coerce me not doing certain things. When this started they did everything to prevent me from posting articles, messages, about this subject, about targeting, mind control, methods they use. But I continued and continue to do this anyway, there is no other way. I am careful, sometimes build up the information slowly, to make them get used to certain new information. To stop me, or to let me know I should never do this (again) they mess with my internet connection, at other times they have me called by one of their operatives, sometimes they create crazy events. And on several occasions they attack other people. In all these cases I am the only one who knows because this is synchronized to what I do. Sometimes, I notice, hear, this immediately, on other occasions a day, or some days can pass. People that are attacked have no idea, and I cannot tell them. I cannot tell them anything. They would not understand and there is nothing I can do to help them.

This is pretty bad, especially when the attacks are very serious and damaging, but that is the way it is. On many occasions I think, should I tell them? But I reject this almost immediately. I cannot do this. Fortunately, the attacks on other people reduced significantly some 5-10 years ago. Reduced, it still happens sometimes. It is more subtle. Yes, they also induce thoughts in heads of people sometimes. And of course they keep involving people around me to participate in their crimes. They don’t want to go to jail. So the bottom line is that I will never share this information with anyone and will take it with me to my grave. That’s the way it is.

7. Trauma: Rape and mind rape

They can also physically rape you remotely with these weapons. You may call this just another torture methode, but this is one step further. This is a subject we, in general, do not want to talk about. Countless times they ‘beamed’ in my anus, mostly when in bed. They can also control you sexually. And I am a man, they can create an erection, or make my erection go away. The latter is a major problem of course. I experienced this for the first time in 2006 when I met a woman whom I instantly fell in love with (later I concluded that this was a setup, an experiment), I never had a problem with sex, but suddenly, after I entered the woman, my erection would disappear. After some time my erection reappeared, tried again, with the same result. After six times I gave up. A few weeks earlier I had read an article that they were able to control your erection remotely. I did some testing using viagra, but this did not really work … did not have much oppertunity to test this … Later, when I was in a relationship with another woman, I learned to keep full control over my brain during sex, and immediately abandon any distracting thoughts. This is how I learned having sex again … and enjoy it. But this is totally not normal of course.

Of course this is not the end of the story because I am not allowed to enjoy anything, and this includes sex. They already tried to disrupt this years earlier. The moment me and a woman were about to have sex, a noise campaign started. Slamming doors, car horns, incoming phone calls, drilling, you name it. But starting in November 2006, when they started cooking me literrally out of my home with these Directed Energy Weapons, they also started using this to attack me when I was having sex. Not only in my own home, but also in other homes, and even when outside. And so I learned to have sex while being cooked alive … and enjoy it, despite the pain. Insanity.

Then there is mind rape. Meaning that they try to mess with your mind the whole time.

From Operation Mind Control by Walter H. Bowart

  • The CIA succeeded in developing a whole range of psycho-weapons to expand its already ominous psychological warfare arsenal. With these capabilities, it was now possible to wage a new kind of war—a war which would take place invisibly, upon the battlefield of the human mind. … [p. 19]
  • Mind control is the most terrible imaginable crime because it is committed not against the body, but against the mind and the soul. Dr. Joost A. M. Meerloo expresses the attitude of the majority of psychologists in calling it ‘mind rape,’ and warns that it poses a great ‘danger of destruction of the spirit’ which can be ‘compared to the threat of total physical destruction . . .’ … [p. 23]

When all hell broke loose in May 2000, I was trying to explain to friend what was going on. Although I mentioned some methods that were used, the main words I spoke were: “They are trying to enter my mind, and I am fighting to keep them out.”

Example: Suggestion X (positive), suggestion Y (positive), then nothing, or the opposite (negative). This was mostly the first 10-15 years. Trying to make you happy, giving you hope, then destroying this totally. Yes, trauma-based mind control at its best. Everything to depress you, to break you. I thank God that this did not start when I was much younger. I already had some 20 years of adult life experience, giving references for recovery. If you are in your teens or twenties you are far more vulnerable. It is very difficult to reset and restart every time. In the beginning I also had the idea that I was part of a group of people who had to commit a serious crime, like murder someone. At that time, 2001-2002, I had not read much about this, so I did not know how I got that idea. This is just how it felt.

I also want to mention here: Theft. Yes, they steal everything, your thoughts, your ideas. They have many people, victims, connected, and all these people generate thoughts on all kinds of subjects. Or, they create the subjects themselves and trigger their victims, by emails, induced thoughts, other people they involve, to research, evaluate these subjects. This is like the hive mind. I have had several ideas that after some weeks, months, were promoted by the government or a company in some form. I must add here that, once I knew what they doing, I tried not to give them all my thoughts, ideas. small part of what has been doen, Often it was as simple as changing the things I was working on, distract yourself. I also believed that they were looking for things that I would do if I wanted to get back to them. I am not a terrorist, but I certainly speculated what a person could do to hit back hard. They strengthend some infrastures but I consider it too much ‘honor’ that it was me who suggested this. It was the time of (false flag) attacks in the UK and France after 9/11.

This all is still going on. I don’t care talking and writing about the physical rape. About the mind rape, this is not very effective anymore. I know what they try to do, I am prepared. But it is still insane.

8. Trauma: Living in the Matrix feeling

The problem is that I did an enormous amount of research on all these topics, and because of that, I know a lot. Besides that, I experienced a lot, and because I survived, I can talk and write about this. I know who they are, I know the people they involve, I know what they do. For example, just open a news website. You see stories, events, incidents, they created. Winners, losers, they create them, you name it. This is a weird feeling because on many moments in your life you do not want to think of this too much. But when you are outside, for example in a city, all these people walking around, you cannot suppress thinking for example of the film the Matrix. You are walking there with all this knowledge about this illusion that is called “Western democracy” and all these other people know nothing. I can compare this because 30 years ago I also knew “nothing”. I am in the real world, but also in the Matrix. Should tell them? Knowing this will turn your world upside down. Nothing will be the same anymore. Who am I to tell them, the ones who know nothing, things that will change their life forever. Most people just want to live a simple life, have a family, friends, be happy.

In the beginning, I could not believe such evil existed. It took me a year before I could accept that this was done by government agencies (and their contractors). Idiots just experimenting on and murdering innocent people, and for what? For a little money? Weapons development? False flags? How can you live with this? I believe nobody can live with this, you will end up with a twisted mind. Intelligence agencies often recruit people with twisted minds anyway, and in many cases they have created these people themselves. In 2011 I wrote an article: The normal people (we) at war with the mentally ill (them).

But today there are valid reasons to tell everyone at least something. The UNESCO (United Nations) is warning about the loss of free will, autonomy of thinking, privacy of thoughts, because of all rapid advances in neurotechnology, the brain computer interface, and Artificial Intelligence. They asked governments to take measures to preserve our autonomy. But the goverments tell their citizens nothing about this. just like they tell us nothing about the AI revolution that is going on, that is going to take away your job, your life. Instead, governments today they are introducing this technology in Criminal Justice. The thought police and the (1984) Ministry of Love (to big brother).

Fortunately I met a lot of victims and with some I still have regular contact. We talk about this, we write letters, we publish information and organize events.

Although it has become more easy to talk about these things, I am always careful. Many people simply do not want to know about this. I have a number of websites, and people can see that I am a person that knows a lot about computer and communications technology, that I can write software, maintain databases, etc., but also have a human rights organization. The “in the Matrix” feeling will never go away … because that’s where humanity is heading, at full speed. More people are waking up and begin to understand what is happening, but it is still a very small number.

9. Trauma: Missed opportunities

I consider myself a creative person. Computer technology is one of my passions. I could have achieved so much more if this had not disrupted my life. I am always looking for new, better, more easy. But without human costs like tracking everything a person does. I am a romantic person who likes to be in love (but only with the right person), in a relationship, have a family. This was made impossible. I was already separated when the targeting started, probably one of the selection criteria.

After hell broke loose in May 2000, I was thinking what to do. Came with the following options:

  • Go away, to another far away country.
    But then I had to leave my (young) children.
  • Pretend to be a psychiatric patient.
    Too risky.
  • Stay
    This would mean suffering and fighting back.

My own childhood was far from perfect, father and mother (both very loving) far away, so I promised myself long time ago that whatever happens, I should be there for my children. As expected this apppeared to be extremely difficult after the targeting started. They did everything, and I mean everything to separate me from my children. I will not go into all details here.

Except this one. At a certain moment my lower legs suddenly developed second degree burns. huge blisters, all next to each other, filled with fluid. In the hospital they put bandage all around but in the weekend I went to hospital again because my legs were leaking. The weekend doctor asked what could be the cause and I mentioned that I was attacked with Directed Energy Weapons, and that this could have been a reason. Two weeks later I was called by a doctor who said: “Peter, what have you done?” I replied: “No idea, what do you mean?” He said: “You forgot your child.” Which was a blatant lie. Then they sent Mental Health Netherlands (GGZ) to me, and later Child Abuse Netherlands (AMK, today Veilg Thuis). I already had STOPEG at that time and later they said that maybe I did not forgot my child but it was dangerous because of these weapons. I wrote them a letter mentioning that this was not the case and that children from rich, well-known, persons, were in far more danger. Case closed. Many years later, I requested all my documents from many organizations, also from the GGZ. Completely absurd information was in these documents, I will spare you the details, but the most important thing was that the hospital weekend doctor had said that I had forgotten my child, but also that she wanted nothing to do with it and that her name was not to be mentioned in the records under any circumstances. Crazy. I know that many people being targeted are separated from their partner and children, it is often a horror story, you cannot imagine, but I was lucky (and suffered a lot), despite everything that was going on, to be able to remain a father even after this started.

So, yes, a lot of missed opportunities. In return I got knowledge, and I met a lot of nice people I never would have met. When I was 16-17 years old and started to become more political aware, I was looking what was happening and asking myself: How can this system maintain itself? Why is there no real opposition? I concluded at that time that there was something very wrong, but I could not pinpoint it. Then you start studying and working and then children come, and all this time this remains some sort of background problem that you know you must figure out one day. Another related thing that always bothered me was unjustice in the world. How can we, in the Western world, live with all this excessive food, and material things, luxury, while a few thousand kilometers away, people are at war and/or starving to death? I was brainwashed, but not “good enough” and this probably also had very much to do with my parents. We never prayed before having dinner but they always (!) said we had to be grateful that we could have a meal today, and mentioned shortly what was going on in the world.

Again, yes, a lot of missed opportunities. Life has been some sort of every day fight when you wake up (after another night with torture). Good morning, and the torture and all other manipulation of your life continues.

10. Trauma: Unforgivable crimes and hatred

I consider the crimes that have been committed not only against me, but also against people around me, including children, and animals, unforgivable. I knew several people, including a child, that are dead now. Why? Why would you murder totally innocent people, children, animals. Yes, I consider driving people into suicide also murder. And why would you involve other people, children, in your crimes. This is only possible when there is something very wrong with you.

Already in 2007 I wrote that the attackers are murderers, pedophiles, child abusers and thiefs. If they were exposed and the people of the world would know what they did, then they probably would all be hanged. I am not the person that decides about life and death. A life time sentence for these criminals is fine with me. I am not a religious person but I believe there is something, call it god. Every person on this planet knows the difference between right and wrong. That’s the most basic thing in life, we are born with it. Wrong is simply bad things that people (can) do to you, easy, everyone knows this. This means you always know this when you do such things to other people. And because this is so basic, there may be some kind of reckoning when you die, a heaven and a hell? I hope this is true, it is certainly nice to think of.

To me, these crimes are unforgivable, and yes, I hate the ones attacking and involving people, including children, and animals. How many lives destroyed, how many deaths did they cause? Right from the start, I realized it could take years, maybe even decades, before the truth came to light. But this does not eat me. It is not prominent in my life. But if I had the chance to put them behind bars, I would definitely take it.

Extra goals in my life

Because of the targeting I have new, extra, goals in my life:

  • Exposing this horrible human experimentation program.
  • Trying to help (new) victims, although there is not much I can do
  • Trying to inform people what is coming, making them aware.

I have no illusion that this program can be stopped easily. It is well hidden, protected by national security, and exposure probably would mean the end of “western democracy”. On the other hand, it is almost impossible to keep secrets today. In addition, one USB-drive is enough and there are adversaries of “Western democracy” who must have hacked computers with all information about this program and will use this to blackmail “Western democracies”. And then there are people in “Western democracies” who know about this program and its goals, and want the ones doing this exposed. They understand that they will be next if they let this go on.

Helping (new) victims is mostly educating them. It is extremely difficult to connect the dots, especially the first years. Today there is a lot of information on the internet about this but there is a difference between knowing and understanding. And it is not only about attacks with Directed Energy Weapons. It is a full spectrum of attacks, multi-level, or multi-domain, see also Cognitive Warfare. Example:

  • In domain A: They see you want to write a letter about them and want to stop you.
  • In domain B: They mess with your internet connection.
  • In domain C: They have you called by a fake victim with an endless story.
  • In domain D: They distract you with strange sounds in your home.
  • In domain E: They use Directed Energy to make you feel dizzy so you must lay down.

Trying to get the ones responsible into prison is almost impossible but worth the try. This is mostly about writing letters, publishing information on the internet. I am just a tiny piece of resistance, but many tiny pieces can achieve a lot.

Today the goal of the program is much more clear than 20 years ago. The program was and is used to develop Cognitive Warfare programs. Cognitive Warfare is a multi-domain control system, with attack capabilities. They already have your data, in real-time, now they are connecting your brain. The result: A mind prison for everyone. Computers running our thoughts, our free will. We don’t want this for our children, do we?

Summarizing, there are extra things to do for me in life. I think I spent at least half of my time on these new goals. In 2000 I decided to stay, not run away, and fight back. In 2007 I started a human rights organization. I continued, despite all the horrific attacks and torture intended to stop me. In a way, it feels as if I sacrificed myself. I know the impact of what I do is minimal, and that I am just one of the many people on this planet fighting for a better world. If you ask me the question today, was / is it worth it, I can only say: Yes. There is no other way.

Lasting physical problems

I always tried to stay healthy, meaning eating healthy, and doing sports. running, swimming, … Of course they tried everything to prevent me from doing this. I had many attacks that had serious impact on parts of my body. But I believe I recovered every time from them. In some cases recovery took months. And of course they often do things to prolong recovery. Wounds should heal fast, but the microwaving and pulsed high power microwave prevents this or makes this worst.

There is one thing that is permanent. End of 2018 I was thinking of participating in the 2019 European Parliament elections. Then, beginning of 2019 I suddenly got very ill. Some sort of Psoriasis Gutata to the max. Whole body swollen, skin bursting open. Never had anything in my life. It took me some nine months to recover from this but I never fully recovered. There is something changed in my blood. Wounds do not heal fast anymore, small wounds, much blood, a mess. Thank you so much for poisening me. The 2024 I wanted to participate in the European Parliamentary elections again and they attacked my knees, and hips and legs, with the result that I could not walk (without extreme pain) for a two months. After the elections, the pain completely disappeared. Wonderful.

Why I am writing this

A few years ago they wanted me to shut up, to stop writing about the targeting. How do I know? Because they started intensifying their attacks when I published on the internet. Now, why would I shut up about this? The best years of my life have been destroyed, they not only attacked and tortured me relentlessly, day and night (still going on), but also attacked people around me, I personally know of several people who died, including a child. They criminalized many people, including children, by making them co-operate with their crimes. And they want me to stop? Me? I should stop? Gotta be kidding. They also contact me via people they can easily control, that say I should stop, that it cannot be so bad. That I should stop or some people may get angry … really.

So where are the apologies, where is the rehabilitation, where is the compensation (which can never be enough)? Where are the promises to put an end to this inhumane program that causes so many innocent people to suffer? Where are the promises to stop this, soon for everyone, inhumane program?

Last year, after more than 25 years of 24/7 non-stop (often second-by-second) attacks, torture, I was tired, exhausted, and decided to do something else. I would have done this years earlier but that was not possible because of my personal situation. When selling my stuff before I left, they prevented some things being sold, I mentioned before they are also thieves. I walked for almost four months, some 1500 kiometers. I knew I had forced away all my sadness and anger for far too long. I needed healing but I did not know how exactly. The main thing I wanted was to let go, and see what would happen. Of course I was attacked the whole time. During walking I was often ‘shot’ (cooked alive) from the sky. When in my tent, or later when in hostels, their daily routine was to remotely electrocute me, with the focus on my legs and feet. This causes spasms that are very difficult to control. I was able keep the ‘jumping’ to a minimum. They also loved to make me fart and burp, and when you are in a room with other people you must suppress this as well. And of course other things like microwaving my hips, legs, feet, but not damaging enough to stop me from continueing the next day. There were some stalkers reacting to my thoughts, movements, but not every day.

This walking was very good for my physical but there was not enough time to think, I was too occupied with the daily routine of walking, eating and sleeping. With Christmas I returned to the Netherlands. I was extremely emotional. During the month in the Netherlands, besides the ‘normal’ attacks, they microwaved my feet that developed some kind of terrible skin trauma, They prevented this from healing, made it worst. They love to make things worst. After one month I left again, this time to stay a few months in Portugal. When I arrived I was still extremely emotional but that slowly disappeared. The first month the weather was bad and got very ill, some sort of flu. Then the weather got better. Am I healing? Can you recover from more than 25 years 24/7 often horrific torture, while everything goes on? I do not know. But I believe I did good to do something else. I was emotionally exhausted, and slowly feel better again, while the attacks continue (what else is new). At the moment of writing this, I am no longer emotional when thinking of the everything that happened. Probably I am more in control again. I know that for me, it is also very important to know the truth, to connect the dots, there were still some missing. And I did. I also knew that I needed to dig more into the mental damage that has been done. And that is why I am writing this. It know it will not solve the problem, and what I have written down is only small part of what I experienced, but it feels good, now that most of it is “on paper”. I wanted to write about this, it took some time before I could, and now I am almost done. Done with writing this story that is, not with other things. Now I must pubish this and then start doing other things again. I am burning my (little) savings at the moment but I find my mental well-being at the moment the most important thing in my life.

Finally

Finally, to the governments and security systems, STOP TORTURING, AND EXPERIMENTING ON, INNOCENT PEOPLE. This does not belong in society. All your lies and crimes have been exposed. The people you attack are not criminals, are not mentally ill, on the contrary. Targeting has become a big business without serious oversight, people with twisted minds pretending they do important work, making big money by destroying lives of innocent people. Without accountability. Everything in secret. More people on the list means more money. I compare this with an orphanage run by pedophiles.

You should have introduced more transparency decades ago, see also the home page of STOPEG. But you did the opposite and were not able to transform the illusion of “Western democracy”. And because you all are old-fashioned, and used to abusing your powers, you do not know how to change. I know that many of you are afraid, that you all fear the truth. You thought you could get away with this, but you cannot. Because of the internet you know. Because of reading this you know. You know what you are and you have to live with this. In a (real) court of law where truth prevails, many of you would be sentenced to life. You cannot undo your horrific crimes, but it’s never too late to change. Stop these crimes, acknowledge that what you did was wrong, and accept the consequences. Rehabilitate and compensate the victims. Start creating a better world. Save the children of the world. Not tomorrow but today!

12 July 2026
Peter

P.S.1. Retaliation

Last January 2026 when I (again) tried to establish an address in the Netherlands, I was also asked via some channel by the usual suspects, how democracy could be improved. I did not answer, and they retaliated.

P.S.2. Directed Energy Weapons can also be used to:

  • Create sounds inside and outside your home (‘plok’ in plastic materials);
  • Discharge batteries of equipment like phones, watches;
  • Destroy light bulbs;
  • Destroy plants;
  • Make a dog bark, a horse jump;
  • Make pets vomit;
  • Disrupt your car’s engine;
  • Etc.

And if you believe they can be used to control humans, then think of how they can control animals. Most prominent is pigeons, doves. They can make them follow you, fly over you, land close to you, etc.

P.S.3. When this started for me end 1990s / beginning 2000s, there were a few articles, books, that opened my eyes, helped me deprogram. At the time they were mind blowing for me. You can read, then you know. But the full impact hits only after some time. Then you read parts again and again. Anyway, maybe you find them useful:

This was Part 4 – Traumas, of a 4 parts series.

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